Today is the fifth edition of #WritingWednesday!!!
Remember, #WritingWednesday is an EASY, STRESS-FREE, weekly writing challenge.
• Read the writing prompt below,
• Spend 5 minutes writing (in your own voice or the voice of a character you’re writing) whatever comes to mind,
• DON’T EDIT what you write! IT DOES NOT HAVE TO BE PERFECT!
The goal is 5 minutes of creativity.
Today I am writing in the voice of Austin, the lead character in my upcoming novel The Beast Within (This is not a selection from the novel, but part of my character development journal.)
Today’s writing prompt:
Name one thing you have lied to yourself about. Why did you do this?
I can control it. I can control it. I can control it. I can control it. The mantra runs through my mind constantly as I hunt—feed—kill. I can control it, four simple little words that mean so much. Four simple little words that clearly aren’t true.
When I was a kid, my father taught me to control the urges—the hunger. He taught me to hunt, to feed, and to kill. He taught me to clean up after myself and not to leave any evidence behind. What he didn’t teach me, what I wish he had taught me, was to stop. I just want to know how to make it all stop. I don’t want to hurt people. I don’t want to kill. I just want…
What do I want?
I want to be normal.
I just want to be human.
© 2019 Nina Soden
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Alright, now it’s your turn. I’d love to see what today’s writing prompt inspires in you. So, if you are willing, go to the comment section below and start typing. Take 5 minutes and let’s see what you come up with!
Name one thing you have lied to yourself about. Why did you do this?
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Nina Soden 
He loves me. I had told myself those three little words so many times in the past years. He loves me, I thought when I found out I was carrying his child. He loves me, I thought when I went into labor early. He loves me, I thought when I left Maggie with him as I went to do my job. I thought it plenty more times but the time it was the most false was the day I tried to run away. When I watched him cut my, our, daughter’s arms open. When he tied me up to be punished for trying to escape. I kept trying though. I tried to believe we’d be one happy family with our hundreds of workers responding to our every beck and call. I kept lying to myself until the day I was finally saved and then I realized why I kept doing it. Because I needed the thought of love. I needed to know someone cared if I lived or died and the day Saffron and Felix saved me, I felt that. That moment I realized he didn’t love me nor did I ever truly love him.
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I told myself that I never needed a family, I didn’t need friends. I always told myself the same thing everyday. I didn’t need the Shatterglades, and I definitely didn’t need any wimpy alien adopting me into their family.
But, I actually was lonely. It was lonely drifting around in space, the robots can’t talk back, and no one bothers me, especially not when I touch down with my Shatterglades suit on… They all cowered in fear just by the shattered glass emblem painted on the back of the skintight leather suit. No one wanted to fool around with anyone adopted into their clan.
It was really lonely in space. It really was.
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I thought I loved him. I really did. I mean, I care for him. He’s been here through so much, he means so much to me. I don’t want to say it wasn’t enough, but our relationship was missing something. One day Adam will know, he’ll understand and move on. It’s whats best. I tried so hard to give him the love I knew he had. Sometimes it is just a feeling. I even believed for a minute I loved him, but that was a lie. I didn’t love him, and I was setting him up for heartbreak by staying. I shouldn’t have lied to myself. At least then, he too wouldn’t be broken.
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You’re doing awesome. 🙂
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